Please anyone, I'm feeling so suicidal as of late and I'm afraid it's going to get worse!!!!?

I suffer from major chronic depression, insomnia, anxiety, ADD, and I took a test that said I show some signs of PTSD... I can't stand the thought of going back to the hospital and I'm scared I might be too late to do anything but wallow in my own misery... I'm so alone all the time with no social skills to even keep a conversation going.. I usually just have a one word reply.. Wow listen to yourself zeke, I don't know if anyone is even going to reply anytime soon... I'm so pathetically weak.. PLEASE ANYONE IM SO ALONE AND FRIGHTENED JUST TALK TO ME IM NOT A MONSTER :,,(